“, don’t go”! “, I have to, I am sorry, I can’t do this band thing”! “We have not even started yet, how can you say that you can’t deal with it”! “, you are number 1 with your first single, it’s going to be big”! “Don’t you want to be part of it”? He asked. “Yes, but I just can’t”! “ I love you” “ I am only 17, I don’t even have an education yet”! “No, but we don’t have to tell the public that we are together”! “ I am sorry, it’s not going to happen”! “I thought you loved me”! “Yeah I do love you, but it will be easier for you with no girlfriend”! “I just don’t understand it”! He said sad and sat down on his bed. “No I know”! “Do you want me to stop in the band”? “NO, I will never ask you to do that, you know you have all my support and I am very proud of you and the boys, but it’s just not me I am sorry babe”! said and sat down beside him. “We will always be friends right”? asked. “Yes we will always be friends, you are my best friend”! “And you are mine”! replied and gave her one last kiss. “You’ll always be my first love ”! “And you’ll be mine”! She said now with tears in her eyes. She really wanted to be with him all the way, but she would miss him everyday and she couldn’t hurt herself in that way, thinking about what he was doing with other girls, when she wasn’t with him. It was not that she didn’t trust him, but she didn’t trust the girls, the fans all around them and she knew how hard it could be for a guy only being 20. It was too early for him to settle down and she knew it.
Chapter 1
10 years later
It was weird to be back, everything still looked the same. was her hometown and it was still as beautiful as ever, but it was just too small for her. She had gotten hold of her best friend’s number and had arranged to meet her of their favourite café!
“ I can’t believe that you are here”! said smiling at her best friend from school. “No I know, but I decided to come back for a while”! “Only for a while”!? “Yeah I love London, I’ve been in New York for a long time and when I decided to come back, Dublin and especially Sligo wasn’t big enough for me”! “What you used to LOVE Sligo and Dublin, you hated to go to cities bigger than that”! “Yeah I know and then I fell in love with New York and now London, who knows maybe one day I’ll be back here to grow old”! said smiling. “You are crazy, what about your children; do you want them to grow up in a city like London”? “Lot’s of kids grow up in London, but actually I’ve decided not to have any kids”! said smiling at her best friend. “What when you were together with , you wanted a bunch of kids together”! “Oh yeah, , how is he by the way”! “Haven’t you talked with him”? asked surprised. “We lost contact 8 years ago or something like that, haven’t thought of him in a long time”! said being honest, sometimes he managed to sneak into her dream, but that was it, she had been busy meeting new people in New York and London and she loved her new life. “I can’t believe it, you guys were perfect together”! “Yeah the best friends right”! She laughed. “Whatever, he is probably married now”! “No he is not, not yet”! “Oh he is engaged”? “No, he has a girlfriend, they have been together for 3 years now, so it probably won’t be long”! explained. “Okay, what about and the lads”? “Well and I are still going strong and is together with now”! “Wow that’s great, so you are all Westlife couples, what about the other guys”? asked. “Well is with , quitted the band, but he lives in Australia now with his girlfriend and met a sweet girl her name is , they are getting married next summer”! explained. “A lot have happened in 10 years ay”!? said sitting down with the coffee she had just bought. “Yeah it has been an amazing 10 years, but I sure missed you”! “Yeah I’ve missed you too, I am glad I got your number from your mam”! smiled, “You look good you know, happy and very stunning”! “Thanks , so do you, I am sure that guy still makes you dizzy when he smiles. Remember in school, you were so crazy about him”! said laughing. “Yeah and yes he can still make me dizzy, but not as much when he smiles”! said with a dirty smile. “Oh you finally crossed that line”! laughed. “ it’s been 10 years of course we did”! said giggling. “And he was good, well or else you wouldn’t still be with him”! “!!! Well I have no complains what so ever”! said and the girls started to laugh. It was like they had never been apart and loved spending time with her again, being updated and stuff.
“So why aren’t with us”? asked when they sat in the bus going to Liverpool for the next gig”! “Oh she will arrive in Manchester; she just had somewhere to go”! said. “Where”? asked a bit confused. It was weird she wasn’t there, not once had she missed a gig, since the lads started bringing the girls on tour. “Well she had to go to the local café”! said smiling. “WHAT is that her reason”? asked laughing. “I know it’s good, but come on , she could go there whenever we are back home”! She added. “Yeah I know, but it was very important I would have been there as well if I didn’t have to work and I am sure , that if you knew why, you would have been there too”! said, he was really happy was finally back in , if not for long then just for a little while, he knew how much especially had been missing her, so when called, there had been no doubt, she would meet the guys later on the tour.
“Come on , nothing is more important than to spend my time, with my gorgeous and sweet boyfriend”! said blowing a kiss, who sat beside playing play station. grinned and leaned into , “She’s there with she’s back in ”! He whispered. “WHAT, WHY HAVEN’T ANYONE TOLD ME”! yelled. “I am sorry, but she just wanted , it would be too much for her the first day. “Oh my god, I would have been there, oh I so want to see her again”! “Yeah I know, I want to see her as well, but hopefully she’ll stay in town for a while”! said giving a soft hug. had tears in her eyes. “I can’t believe she hasn’t called me”! “Well she had lost all our numbers, you know we have all been changing a lot and then she met ’s mam and got hers”! said explaining.
“What are you guys talking about”? asked. “It’s nothing important”! said. “What, it’s more important than anything”! said. “What are you upset about sweetie”! asked. “I want to be in right now”! “What, you were really excited about going on tour with us again”! “Yeah that was before I found out”! “Found out what doll”! asked concerned. “Well before I found out that is back in town”! stopped playing immediately and looked at . “What did you just say”! “, she’s back in ”! “REALLY…how do you know”? looked at . “WHAT HOW”? asked. “Well she called and they agreed to meet up, that’s why she’s first joining us in Manchester”! replied. “I can’t believe this, why haven’t you told me”? asked puzzled. “ you have been together with for 3 years and you guys are happy, remember and I didn’t want to ruin that”! “Nothing is getting ruined because she is back, I would just have loved to see her again”! “Smell her, touch her”! He added in his thoughts. “Yeah we all would, what a bad timing she has”! said. “I can’t believe she’s back, what about bring her”! asked. looked at his mate, “You are a genius ”! He replied. “Oh you liked that idea did you”! said laughing. He knew had been thinking about every day since she left for New York. No one had ever thought she would leave , her favourite place in the whole world, but one day they had come back, she told them she had got herself a job in New York. was sure that it was because of all the memories of ; he knew she wasn’t as tough as she seemed to be.
“So how will we get it all arranged”? asked. “ when is joining us”! “She is joining us in Manchester as well”! said. “Well wouldn’t it be awkward for you, to meet there, the first time in what, 10 years with around”! “It’s only been 9 years since I saw her take of to New York and no it will be perfectly fine, I want to meet her, she has heard much about her. By the way I love and nothing is going to happen”! said not even believing it himself. “Well then I guess it won’t be a problem to get to ask to bring her along”! said looking at . “No of course not, I would love it if she came along, haven’t seen her for years”! “Oh yes , that’s the best idea you have had in a very long time”! said kissing his cheek. “I can’t wait to meet her, she sounds wonderful”! said. “Aaww she is, and her used to go out”! said. “GO OUT, we were together for 4 years”! said. “What went wrong”? asked concerned, but also a bit curious. “Well she didn’t want to be a part of this world”! “She didn’t support you guys, how can you call her a friend”! “Oh , you don’t know her, she supported me and the lads more than anyone else, she just didn’t want to have a part of the cake”! said a bit sad. “And you have missed her ever since”? “Well new things happened in my life, so it wasn’t that bad, the worst times, was when I was back home and she wasn’t there. In my mind would always be in ALWAYS, but she moved to New York, I really hope she’s back for good”! said puzzled. “You still love her”! said looking at his best friend. “No not like that anyway, but I have missed having her in my life”! “Yeah that’s how we all feel”! said. “So you know if she’s back to stay”? asked looking at the lads. “Well she isn’t”! said. “She’s going back to New York”? said biting his lip. “No she’s got an apartment in London now”! “London is not that bad”! replied looking at . “No I guess not, well it’s better than New York anyway”! said forcing a little smile.
Chapter 2.
“You want me to what”? asked when was on the phone. “Is it , let me talk to him”! asked, she missed hearing all of their voices. smiled at her friend and handed her the phone.
-HELLOOO, is this the guy, who has been shagging my best friend. – knew by the silence, that was blushing right now!
- you always know how to make me blush how are you?
-I am having a fabulous time with your lovely girlfriend. God I have missed you guys so much.
-I think I speak for everyone on this bus, when I say we have missed you as well
– She could hear all the cheering in the bus, which made her laugh.
-Can you please give them all a hug from me !
-Sure, but I actually called to ask you something!
-Oh okay, what is it ?
-Well we have been talking and as you know is joining us in Manchester, erm why don’t you go along, we miss you and we all want to see you again.
-Well I have to think about it, so I might come along and I might not!
handed over the phone to .
“I don’t know , we’ll see. Okay, I love you bye, bye”! pushed the red button. “So are you okay”? She asked looking at . “Yes of course it was great hearing them all”! “Did you hear ”? “No not , but the rest of them”! “Okay, well what do you say do you want to go”? She asked. knew that would love to bring her on tour. “Well isn’t it enough with , and ”? “No , you are my best friend and I want to spend more time with you”! “OKAY; OKAY”! “Are you serious you are going with me”? “Yes as long as it stays a secret I would love to surprise the lads and ”! “Sure of course”! said hugging her best friend. “So what do you want to do tonight”? asked looking at . “I would love to go around saying hello to all their families, haven’t seen and for ages and they were a huge part of my life you know”! said smiling a bit sad. “I think that’s a great idea”! said with a huge smile.
The girls went round to ’s and ’s, who was really pleased and very excited to see , they all told her how much, she had been missed, which made cry a couple of times, but it was all happy tears.
“So are you excited”? asked. “Yeah a bit nervous I guess”! said forcing a smile. “Why, babe you know they have always loved you”! “Yeah, but I left their son sad and I haven’t talked to them since”! “You know they drove you to the airport, when you decided to go to New York”! “Yeah I know that, god I am SO nervous right now”! said when they walked up their drive way. When they stood outside the door, looked at her friend, “Are you ready”? She asked. “Yeah”! replied and looked down at her feet. knocked on the door and the girls stood waiting for a while.
“”! said when she saw and another girl standing outside. looked up when she heard the familiar voice and broke into a huge smile. “OH MY GOD, is that you”! said, “Yeah, hi ”! She replied and embraced her with a warm and long hug. “Oh my god, we have missed you so much….”! yelled and soon after Mr. stood outside. “Look who’s here, it’s ”! “Oh, we haven’t seen you for such a long time”! He said giving her a huge hug. “No, I know, I am really sorry”. “Come on in girls”! said and gave a hug as well. “Thank you”! said smiling. When she came inside all the things were the same, the smell, just everything, it was amazing to be back. “So does knows that you are back”? asked. “Yeah I guess, I talked to earlier today”! “I guess he is thrilled, they all are”! “Well we are going to meet up with them in Manchester, but please don’t tell him I want it to be a surprise”! said smiling. “He will be so thrilled”.
-Hi mam, what’s up?
- is here!
-Yeah I know, has stayed home to meet her.
-No , she is here, with your dad and I. She came to visit us.
-That’s great mam, that’s really great, how is she?
-Oh she is so beautiful, more beautiful than ever. She dyed her hair now it’s brown, oh she is just perfect, you know, your dad and I actually thought, she had forgotten all about us, but here she is now!
-Yeah mam, that’s great and I am sure she’s still beautiful.
-Well son I just wanted you to know, she hasn’t changed one bit, she is still the sweetest girl!
-I am sure mam.
“Who were you talking to”? asked. “Oh it was just my mam. She wanted to tell me, that is visiting them right now and that she is more beautiful than ever”! said and started to laugh. “They always loved that girl”! “Yeah and they still do, they thought she had forgotten about them, but this just shows she hasn’t changed one bit”! said smiling. “Oh god , you have to take care of yourself when she arrives, you know that right”? asked. “Yeah I know, I just can’t believe that she’ll be here in 2 days”! “Yeah and so will , your world together has been perfect. You have to be careful. If hasn’t changed, then I am sure she still doesn’t want a piece of this world”! “No I know, you are right , I have to forget the thing we had”! “That’s the spirit ”! “So is she coming”? asked. “Might, might not was the answer I got from her”! said shrugging his shoulders. “Okay well then there is a 50/50 chance ay ”! asked smiling at his friend.
“50/50 chance of what”!? turned around and there stood. “Oh hey baby, that’s nothing important, what are you doing here already”! “Aren’t you happy to see me”? She asked pouting her lips. “Sure of course, I am so happy to see you, I have missed you so much baby”! He said and stood up and gave her a hug and a kiss. “That was better”! She replied smiling. sat down again and she sat down on his lap. “Hi guys, how are you all doing”? She asked looking around. “Oh very well thank you , we are just excited”! “ABOUT”? asked smiling. “ is back, she might be joining us”! replied. “Oh …why didn’t you tell me that’s great news, I can’t wait to meet her”! “Well I haven’t told you, because it’s not sure yet, but we hope she will”! “Oh that would be so much fun”! said clapping her small hands. “Yeah”! said smiling, was so weird sometimes and too supporting. really wanted and together, but she knew and this life wasn’t meant to be, was too quiet. But she surprised everybody by going to New York; maybe she would be ready to be a Westlife girl now as well.
Chapter 3.
“Here we are”! said when they arrived in Manchester airport. and had agreed to meet at the hotel, as she hadn’t told him that she had brought along. “Are you sure you can handle to see again, told me, that arrived 2 days ago”! “Yeah, I can cope with them, I told you, that I actually haven’t thought of that much. I have actually thought more of his parents than him. They did everything for me back then”! “They’ll still do anything for you, you know that babe”! “Yeah probably, they seemed happy to see me again”! “Happy??? They were thrilled nothing less, you are their nr. 1 daughter in law”! started laughing. “Yeah I guess, that’s hard competing with, so I better stay away from the ’s while is near them”! “Yeah that’s probably a good idea”! said laughing.
When they arrived to the hotel, looked at , “You are shaking like hell”! “Yeah I know I am, is it okay if we get the key and go straight to the room, before we go down”? “Yeah of course”! replied and they went inside, got the key to ’s room and went upstairs. “I will just go and fresh up”! said and went to the bathroom.
“Wow , you look great, trying to make a good impression”? “Of course, I always am”! “Before you didn’t care”! “Yeah, but things change. I went to New York and I learned about fashion, just like you started to like fashion more, when Westlife became famous”! “Yeah I had to babe, we are in the media all the time, poor would have a bad rumour, if I still dressed like I did 10 years ago”! said and they started laughing.
When the girls got downstairs, they could hear laughing in the bar. “Why don’t you go in first and after a while I’ll follow you”! asked. “Yeah I’ll let them think that you didn’t want to come along”! said and went to the bar.
“”! said and stood up. Gave her a huge hug and so did the rest. “Oh my god , why didn’t you tell me that is back”? asked. “Well I wanted it to be a surprise, sorry girl”! “It’s okay, so where is she”! looked at and she shrugged her shoulders. “Sorry guys”! “Aaww”! They all said. went to the bar and got two beers. “Why did you get two beers”? asked. “One for each hand ay”! said and whistled. started to laugh, was always crazy, but also very fun to be around.
When heard whistle she took a deep breathe and went inside the bar, where everybody went quiet. She looked around the guys. “ BABY”! yelled, while raising her fist. They always used to yell that, when they visited other cities, so she did it just to break the ice and they went hysterically, yelling it back. “Hey guys”! She said and walked around hugging people. “Oh , it has been so long since I have seen you”! “Yeah 10 years baby, but you look more beautiful than ever”! “Thanks you are not that bad either ”! replied smiling. “Hi you must be I am ”! A tiny said standing up. “Oh yeah, hi , nice to meet you how are you”? started to chit chat to be polite. “I have been so excited to meet you; I have heard so many good things about you”! “Aaww that’s great, I can’t wait to get to know you”! said forcing a smile. When she had said hello to an over excited she looked at , who sat starring out in nowhere.
“ ”! said and went to stand in front of him. He looked up and when he looked her into her eyes, he could feel the tears well up. She was really there and his mam had never been more right, she was more beautiful than ever. “, how are you”? He asked and gave her a hug. “I am good, really good”! “So you are moving to London”! “Oh you know”? “Yeah, told me, London is better than New York, closer I mean”! said. “Yeah”! “I really need to have some alone time with you, can you grab your beer and then we can go for a walk”! “Yeah of course”! said staying calm. He was gorgeous, being in Westlife had made him grow up. He was turning 30 after their tour and he was sexier than ever.
“Baby, I am just going for a walk with I’ll be right back”! “I really want to get to know her”! said pouting. “Yeah you will get to know her, we have plenty of time”! “Okay ”! She said laughing.
“Sorry did she just call you ”? asked laughing when they went out of the door. “Erm yeah, she does that sometime, really stupid isn’t it”? “Yeah”! said laughing harder making laugh as well. “So you visited my parents”? He asked smiling at her. “Yeah, I have thought a lot about them”! said smiling back at him, “You really made their day, mam used to talk about you every time I called her. She called me while you were at their house”! “Really”!? asked giggling. “Yeah”! stopped. “What”? asked and noticed a tear running down his cheek. “Come here”! He said opening his arms and he embraced her. “I have missed you so much, you won’t believe it, I’ve been thinking about you everyday”! “Everyday, well I have missed you a lot as well, but I met new people in New York and I have also met a lot of people in London, so I started to live with the longing”! “Yeah I know how it is”! said. “I am really proud of you, you know”! “Thanks , wow I really can’t believe that you are actually here, it’s amazing I’ve dreamt about this for years. Not like this though, but this is better than nothing”! “What do you mean not like this”! “Well with here”! smiled. “ it’s been a long time 10 years”! “9 actually”! “Yeah, but 10 since we broke up and now you have dated almost just as long as you dated me, you don’t know me anymore”! “No, but I want to get to know you again, my mam told me that you were more beautiful than ever and she was right and she told me your hair had been dyed and she was right. She ALSO told me that you haven’t changed one bit that you were still the sweet girl you used to be AND I am pretty sure, that she is right about that too”! started to blush. “You are blushing”! “Yeah you always made me blush”! replied. “Yeah, do you want an ice cream”? “Do you think this body can eat anything”? “It used to”! “Well it still can”! said and stuck out her tongue. started to laugh and ordered two vanilla soft ices.
They sat down on a bench. “So what about your boyfriend, where is he”? asked. “Oh , I have no boyfriend”! “What a stunning girl like you”! He asked. “Yeah, well I had a relationship in New York, but he had no intention ever moving closer to Ireland, so I decided to do it myself and I love my life”! “So no babies in the nearest future”!? “No, I am never having kids, just going to have fun as long life allows me to”! “WHAT”! “Yeah I mean it”! “ we were going to have at least 5 children”! “Yes, but a lot have changed in 10 years”! “Yeah I can hear that”! said a bit more hustle. “What’s with the attitude ”! “Well I just don’t understand how you can change from 5 children to zero”! “, don’t think about it”! “Those 5 kids were supposed to be my kids as well”! “Yes , but now you have , have you talked kids with her”? “No I haven’t, because I have never thought about having kids with her”! “ sweetie you are turning 30 in a few months, you have to start thinking about family, you know your parents want more grand children”! “Yeah 5 of them, with your beautiful smile”! started to laugh, “You are still crazy , I am sorry, but I think we need to go back or else your girlfriend will get worried”! “Yeah you are probably right”! “And don’t be angry about the children, any woman would love to have children with your beautiful smile and beautiful eyes and beautiful nose”! “You always did that, telling me everything on me was beautiful”! “, you couldn’t be anymore perfect than you are now”! smiled. “Well let’s get back ”! He took her hand and they walked to the hotel. “I am looking forward to see your show tonight”! said when they were saying goodbye in front of her room “And I can’t wait to see you in the audience, I’ll dedicate a song for you”! “You really don’t have to”! said. leaned in and gave her a kiss on her cheek. “I’ll see you tonight”! “You sure will ”! “I’m really glad you are back”! “ , you really need to go now”! He smiled, “Yeah”! He said and started to back away slowly. “See ya”! He said again and went back into her room.
decided to take a long and warm bath. She sat singing along to the radio. “ are you in here”? asked popping in his head. “Oh god, I am sorry”! “Well it doesn’t matter I guess I forgot to lock the door”! She said with a grin. “Yeah I guess you did, may I”! asked. “Of course, I have foam all over, so come on in”! “Thanks, what have you done to ”? “What do you mean”? asked. “Well he is in a world of his own; can’t get through to him”! “Well that’s just how is, he has always been like that”! smiled, “Yeah, but not like this, he is really happy that you came along”! “Yeah so am I”! “ I am afraid that it will ruin ’s relationship with and they are happy together”! “Well I am not going to ruin anything, I love him yes, but just as a friend, we don’t know each other anymore and I have just told him I don’t intend to have any children and as you probably know wants at least 5”! said. “Okay, yeah I can see how that will not bring you back together”! “And by the way, I just bought an apartment in London. Can you please hand me the towel while you close your eyes”! did and stood up tugging the towel around her. “Now you can open your eyes”! “Well I am glad to hear, that if their relationship is ending it’s not because of you”! “Absolutely not babe”! replied and went to the bedroom.
Chapter 4.
“Aren’t you excited”? asked while all the girls went to their seats. “Yeah very much indeed, I have never seen them live except from the beginning”! “Yeah that wasn’t the best was it”! said laughing. “No, but they were really cute”! Louise . The girls found their seats and sat down.
“So what song are you going to dedicate to ”? “Shadows”! “WHAT, why”? asked a bit confused. “Well as the song says I am tired to see her shadows all over, no matter where I go or with whom it all remind me of her and I am tired of it”. “Yeah pal, but I am not sure she will take it very positive”! “Well then she knows how I feel”! “Yeah and she will keep a distance to you”! said. “You think”? asked. “No I know it, you’ll scare her away”! “Well maybe that’s for the best”! said. “What are you talking about; I thought you were happy to see her”! “I am, but my feelings never changed, I know that now”! “What , is it because of the babies now”! asked. “What babies”? asked. “It’s just that doesn’t want kids anymore and isn’t happy about that”! “How do you know”? asked looking at . “Well I talked to her, surprised her in the bath”! said winking. “WHAT”! “Take it easy , we just talked and I didn’t see her naked”! “Good”! shook his head, “Mate you are lost man, remember a girl called ”!? “Yes , that’s why I think I need to get a bit distance to ”! “Just ask her instead of dedicating the song to her; she would keep a distance to you if you ask her”! “Yeah, I guess you are right”! said.
“Oh it’s going to start”! said smiling excited. “She’s too much excited isn’t she”? asked looking at the other girls who all nodded. “She might see you as a thread”! “I am no thread; I don’t have any feelings for him anymore”! said, trying to believe it herself. just smiled, she didn’t believe her one bit, but she wouldn’t force her to tell about her feelings. When the show started sat screaming like the teenage audience, which made the others laugh, “WHAT…They are fantastic, they are just great, they have such great voices”! Suddenly came on stage alone.
“Well guys I have a very special friend of mine here tonight, I want to dedicate this song to you…here is Shadows”! sat smiling very excited. “I can’t believe he dedicated this song to you”! said confused. “Shhshh”! said, she wanted to listen to every word he sang and when it was over she had a weird feeling inside of her. “Are you okay”? asked. “Erm, yeah I am fine, of course, I am happy he dedicated a song to me”! “Just not that song”!? asked. “Well I understand him, I haven’t been around and now I am back for a while and he find it hard as he has finally moved on, I get it, I’ll keep my distance to him”! She said forcing a smile. “Do you think that’s what he wants”? asked. “Yeah, I think that’s what he wants”! “But you are not going are you”? asked worried. “No of course not, I am enjoying spending time with you and the guys, so I am not going anywhere, but I’ll leave you guys when we get to London”! said smiling.
After the show the girls went backstage. “Thank you guys for the song”! said, she didn’t want to say it to just . “It was ’s dedication”! said. “I know sweetie and I understood it”! She smiled. “HI ”! said kissing her man. “Hi baby, did you like the show”? He asked. “Yeah it was great as always”! She said. “You liked it”? said looking at . “Yes it was great”! replied. It wasn’t often she used his name, she always called him and she saw the reaction in his face. “Thank you”! He said. He knew she had gotten the message in the song and now he was afraid that he would regret it.
“Well aren’t we going to party tonight”? asked. “Of course we are”! said smiling. “Well I have to go back to Ireland”! said. “Oh yeah, your dad’s birthday”! said. “Yeah, I am really sad that you aren’t coming”! “Yeah, but you know I can’t it’s not our day off”! said. “No you are right, well I better get back packing and I’ll meet up with you in London alright sweetie”? “Yes, I already miss you”! said. “I miss you too”! replied. She said goodbye to all her friends and then she went to the hotel and back to Ireland.
Chapter 5.
“ are you ready”? asked walking into her room. “Yeah , give me 2 minutes”! said putting on her high heeled shoes. “Wow you look amazing”! “Thank you , so do you”! started to laugh, “Yeah, but now is gone you are trying to look your best aren’t you”? “What, no I am always trying to do my best”! “Okay”! said not believing a word she said. “Aaah there you girls are”! said smiling and gave them both a hug. “You look stunning as always”! He said kissing . “Thank you babe”! “So where is ”? asked looking around. “He said it was a couple thing, so he decided to stay at home”! “No, no, no I am not going without him then I would be alone with all of you”! “See if you can drag him with you, we can meet up at the club”! said. “Okay I’ll try my best; hopefully I’ll see you soon”! replied and went to the lift and went to the 5th floor, where stayed. took a deep breath before knocking the door.
“”! said surprised when he saw her outside his door. “”! “Stop calling me that I hate it”! “Why don’t you tell her then”? “I’ve tried to, but she never listen, it’s the worst nickname I have ever had”! started to giggle. “Well , will you please let me in or do you want me to stay out here all night”! “No of course not, come on in”! said smiling. When she walked in he looked her up and down, she was perfect and that short green dress did everything right for her body! He put his hand through his hair, trying to calm down the tightness he felt in his jeans. “Deep breathes, deep breathes ”! He thought to himself. “So, why are you not dressed”! “Because I am not going, it’s a couple thing and is not here”! “No and my imaginary boyfriend, decided to stay away as well, but I am still going”! “You have an imaginary boyfriend”? asked smiling. “Sometimes”! She smiled. “But tonight, you are going with me, you are not leaving me alone with all those couples”! said pouting her bottom lip. “You can’t do that to me”! “What”? said knowing exactly what she was doing. “Well that pouting and those puppy eyes”! “They always worked”! said laughing. “Yeah and it still does, let me get dressed”! “That’s the spirit”! said. “Well yeah I don’t want men to drool all over you, without me being there to pretend to be your boyfriend”! He thought to himself. He just forced a smile and then he went to the bedroom and got dressed.
“…. OVER HERE”! They looked up and saw waving them over. took ’s hand and they went to the table. “Finally you got dressed”! said looking at , “Well I am a sucker for puppy eyes, especially hers”! said making giggle. “Well want a drink”? asked. “Sure, what do you want”? asked. “Just a beer, girls, who wants to join me on the dance floor”? asked and stood up immediately.
“So how did you get him to come”? “The puppy eyes still work”! said laughing. “You still like him don’t you”! “Well he is still sexy that’s for sure”! “. be honest”! “I don’t know ; he is with now I don’t want to destroy their relationship she seems in love”! “Yeah, she probably is, but not for the right reasons and loves her back, but not the same way he loved you”!
“So those eyes still work”? asked laughing. “Yeah of course, she looks so sweet and I couldn’t let her go out in that dress without me”! They all started to laugh. “I don’t think you are a sucker for pouting lips and puppy eyes , I think you are a sucker for ”! said laughing. “Yeah, you are probably right”! He replied blushing. “I haven’t seen you blushing for a long time ”! said. “Nah I know”! “You are falling in love all over again, I can see it in your eyes”! said. “I don’t know, well I can’t help to think that we would be perfect together, but you guys knows how much I want a huge family. doesn’t want children, so it won’t be with her”! “Why don’t you change her mind then”! asked. “How am I supposed to do that”? “I have no idea, but once she wanted 5 children with you, maybe you can change her mind again”! She smiled. “Well am I the only one who remembers a girl called ? you have to end it with her, if you love ”! replied. “Yeah I know that, but I love as well, but just not as I should I suppose”! replied. “She’s still a good dancer”! said looking to the dance floor. “Yeah she has some great moves”! “ we don’t want to hear about it”! said making them all laugh.
After a few hours they were all getting drunk. “Well lads and girls I better get back, you know me when I get too drunk, then I will go crazy and we can’t have that”! said. “So nothing has changed there”? asked. “Nope sorry”! replied laughing. “Well let me follow you home”! “No it’s okay, you can stay and have some fun with the guys”! “No remember I wasn’t allowed to leave you alone with them and it’s the same the other way around”! said smiling and stood up. “Well okay then, let’s go”! said and they said goodbye to the others and went back to the hotel.
“So here we are again”! He said when they stood outside her bedroom. “Yeah, well do you want to come in”? “No I better not”! said and kissed her cheek. “Okay see you in the morning ”! replied and went inside and closed the door. She went to the chair and started to take of her shoes. When she was about to get undressed she heard a knock on the door.
“…”! She said smiling. “Yeah, well is it okay if I change my mind”? “Yes of course come on in, I was just changing”! “You don’t have to, you look gorgeous”! “Thanks, but I am not going to sleep in this one”! She said looking down herself. “No of course not, but we are not going to sleep just yet”! replied and sat down in the couch. “So what are we going to do”? asked winking. “Well for a starter, you get your arse over here”! He said and she sat down beside him. “What’s up”? She said smiling. leaned in and brushed his lips softly over hers. just sat smiling and he decided to lean in again and to his surprise she kissed him back. When he pulled back he looked directly into her eyes and smiled. “This is so much better than I remembered it”! said. “Yeah I know”! said leaning in and kissed him again. “So where do you think this will lead to”! asked. “The bed maybe”! said giggling. “Well then I better help you out of that dress”! He said and stood up reaching out his hand. She took it and stood up and helped her out of the dress. They went to the bed and lay down. “Are you sure you want to do this ”! “Yeah I am, you are on the pill right”? “Yeah I am, I wouldn’t let you get near me if I wasn’t”! replied smiling and he started to laugh.
Chapter 6.
The next morning woke up, feeling ’s arms around her. It felt safe, she had had the best sex in her life and she could still feel his hands all over her body, they were everywhere and it felt so right. “Are you awake”? She heard him ask with a very husky and tired voice. “Yeah I am”! She replied and rolled onto her back. He lay on his elbow smiling at her, then he leaned in and received a good morning kiss. “Thanks for last night sweetie”! “No I want to say thanks to you, it was so amazing”! “Yeah wasn’t it”? just nodded. “So are you going to stay here in bed with me all day”? “ you have to meet fans and so on, you are a very busy man”! “Yeah I know that, but that isn’t until tonight”! He replied. “Well what about we order some breakfast from room service and stay in bed a little longer and then maybe we can go for a walk later”! “Sounds good ”! said kissing her again.
“Hey have any of you seen ”? asked. “Or ”! said looking around. “No haven’t heard from any of them today”! said smiling. “What are you smiling at hun”`? asked. “Isn’t it weird that none of them are here right now”? “Yes you are actually right, let me check something”! said and stood up
“Excuse me can you help me”? asked the girl standing in the reception. “Yes of course Mr. what is it”? “Can you tell me if Mr. is in”? “Well I haven’t seen him this morning so I guess he is still sleeping”! “So can you tell me if Ms. is in”? asked smiling. “Well I know she is in, she just ordered breakfast for two”! “OH, did she now”? asked smiling, “Thank you”! He added and went back to the restaurant.
“So did you find out anything”? said looking at her boyfriend. “Well is still in and guess what”? “WHAT”? They all asked. “ is in too and she just ordered breakfast for two”! “No way”! said. “Yeah, are we taking a guess who’s up there with her”? “No I think we know who it is”! replied.
“Oh it’s so great to just be laying here”! said. “Yeah and eating breakfast in bed, I haven’t had breakfast in bed since you made it at your parents place”! said. “REALLY, your boyfriend in New York never made breakfast for you to have in bed”? “Nope, he wasn’t a gentleman like you ”! said giggling. started to tickle her. “No , pleeeeeaaaaseee stop..STOP”! She yelled laughing. smiled and rolled down beside her. “I still love you ”! “I love you too , but we still don’t know each other”! “No I know, but I know I want to be with you all the time”! “ your highest wish is to have a huge family, just like your mam and dad and I can’t give you that”! “Why not”? “I told you already and by the way I am going to live in London for a while”! “Yeah, but I haven’t asked you for any kids now…maybe in a few years”! smiled. “I’ll think about it….hmmm NO”! smiled. “I’ll make you change your mind”! “You can’t”! said kissing his forehead and stood up. “Where are you going”? “Bathroom is that okay”? she said laughing. He just smiled.
“ there is a knock on the door”! said. “Can you please see who it is”? asked washing hands. went to the door. “…and all the rest of you”! said looking at them. “They all just smiled when they saw him in nothing but jeans. “ you are not even wearing socks and your jeans are open”! said winking as she passed him in the door. “Love who was it”? asked when she went to the main room of the suite. “OH hey guys”! “Love it is now”? asked laughing. “Did you guys spend the night together”? looked at with a smile. “Yeah we did”! said. “So what does this mean”? asked. “We haven’t talked about that yet”! said. “You guys still love each other after 10 years”? asked. “Yes we do, but we have to get to know each other again, before we decide anything”! replied. “Well guys, what about we have a shower and we can all meet up downstairs”! said. “Okay, we’ll be in the bar”! said and they all went out of her room.
“That was fun ay”? asked looking at . “Well now we don’t have to sneak around, but hopefully none of them will tell ”! “I will tell her, don’t worry, let’s enjoy our time together until we’ll be in London and when she arrives I will tell her”! “ she’s your chance to have a huge family”! “I want to be with you, so if you aren’t having my kids I am not going to have any”! “ can we please stop discussing it”? “So you don’t want to have a relationship with me”? He asked very confused. “Yes I would love that, but you promised me that we could get to know each other first and I am not even near to be ready to talk about children”! smiled. “Okay I’ll shut up, now let’s have that shower”!
Chapter 7.
“I’ll call you as soon as I have told her”! said hugging at their hotel. had just arrived and was about to go home, she had told the other guys goodbye and now she had to say goodbye to as well. “Yeah, well just take your time okay”! replied. “I love you, you know that right”! “Yes I know, I love you to…”! “But what”? “But nothing”! smiled and gave him a kiss on the cheek. “Talk to you soon ”! said and took her suitcase and went outside, where she hailed a cab immediately.
“So isn’t she staying with us here in London”? “No , she wanted to go back to her apartment”! “And I so want to be there with her”! thought. “Well okay, then I’ll have to wait to get to know her better”! “Yeah…”! replied. “Come on let’s go upstairs, I know what I want to do with you ”! “PLEASE stop calling me that stupid name”! “Stupid, that’s my nickname for you”! “Yes and I really hate it”! said. “You hate it, why haven’t you told me”! “ I have told you hundred of times”! “You haven’t”! “Yes I have, I tell you all the time”! “What’s up with you , you have changed in the two weeks I have been in Ireland”! “Yeah I have…”! “And that means”! “ I love you, but not like I used to, I am really sorry”! “Is it because of ”! “Might be, but I am not sure, I just can’t stay in this relationship”! looked at him. “I can’t believe you , we have been together for 3 years and we are the happy couple you know”! “Yeah I know, but I am not happy in our relationship anymore”! “What will you do if she doesn’t want you”? “Well I have to get over that, I can’t force her to be with me”! said. “Just give us one more chance, you know I have already planned our future with 3 kids and a big wedding”! “”! “WHAT ”! “I can’t do this, I am sorry, you need to leave”! “Okay, if you are really sure”! “I am”! said and walked to the lift and went upstairs. He really wanted to call , but he didn’t
“So have you talked to ”? asked when she met for a shopping trip. “No I haven’t I guess he decided to stay with ”! “That’s it, he broke up with her a couple of days ago, I don’t know why he hasn’t called you”! “Well babe I told him I didn’t want any children, you know how much he wants a big family and I can’t give him that”! “ you can change your mind”. “No I can’t”! “Why the hell not, you guys are perfect together”! “Yeah I know we are, but I can’t give him that family, I can’t have children, I had an infection in New York and they told me I won’t be able to have children”! said with tears running down her cheeks. “Oh my god why haven’t you told him”? “Because it’s his dream and you know I would love to give birth to his children, I just can’t”! “You have to tell him”! “No, it’s better this way. Please don’t tell him anything ”! “Do you still want to go shopping”? “No I don’t think I want, I think I better get home, take a long bath”! “Okay I won’t tell him anything. We are going back to Ireland tomorrow, so if he doesn’t call you, then please give him a call”!
“So babe, weren’t you supposed to go shopping with on your last day here”? asked when came into the restaurant. “Yeah well, she doesn’t feel that well, so she went back home to get a long bath”! “Isn’t she feeling well, what’s wrong with her”? asked. “Well I don’t know , why don’t you call her yourself, you haven’t even called her telling her that you and have broken up”! “No but I guess you told her right”? “Yeah I did”! “Thanks, well she’ll probably call me then”! “No believe me she won’t”! replied. Then ’s phone rang, “Erm yes she will”! He said smiling.
went inside her apartment. She dressed down to nothing and then she went to have a bath. She had brought her phone and when she sat in the hot bath she called .
- here.
-Hi, it’s , so I heard you broke up with !
-Yeah I did, I am sorry I didn’t call you; I just had some thinking to do!
-It’s all okay; I think it’s for the best if we don’t do anything serious about this.
-What babe you can’t do this to me, I love you and I want to get to know you again!
- I cannot give you what you want I am really sorry!
hung up the phone and dropped it on the floor before starting crying. She knew it had been a mistake to get so close to him and it wasn’t her plan, but it happened and now she could only hurt him, she wanted to have that big family and she wasn’t able to give him what he wanted, so he had to move on and so did she.
After her bath she went to her living room and she put on Marley and me and cuddled up in her couch. She always saw that movie, when she was sad. It was the saddest movie ever.
Chapter 8.
“ have you heard from her”? “No I have not heard from her for 2 months now”! “Well , you are so stubborn why don’t you call her”? “Because, she told me to get on with my life, she doesn’t want to give me the huge family I’ve always dreamed of”! “ I promise you, that she wants to help you, she just can’t”! “No she can’t and she doesn’t want to”! “ I promised her not to tell you this, but I need to”! “Tell me what”? “I need to tell you, that she would love to give birth to your children”! “She told you that”? asked with a smile. “Yeah she did”! “That’s great”! “Yes, but she can’t”! “Why not”? He asked confused. “Because she can’t get pregnant”! “Why”? “… she had an infection and she can’t have children no matter how much she wants to”! “Why didn’t you tell me this before” asked. “Because she told me not to”! “Okay, well I better get to London then”! He said. “What for”? “Because I need to talk to her”! He replied.
stood looking at the piece of paper with the address had given him. “Breathe ”! He said to him self and knocked on the door.
“ , what are you doing here”? said hugging him. “I talked to ”! “Oh…OH you did”? “Yeah I did, why didn’t you tell me”? “Because I don’t like to talk about it, it’s easier to say that I want no children”! smiled, “Can we talk about this inside, you know London isn’t the warmest place in December”! “No I am sorry”! said and let him pass. “So what have you been up to, are you together with again”? “No I am with no one”! “Okay”! said smiling. “You actually can’t have babies”? “Well I…I thought I couldn’t”! “You thought”? He asked taking off his coat and sat down in the couch.
“Yeah, well they always told me I couldn’t, but somehow we just fit perfect together”! “You and me”!? asked, he was very confused now. “Yeah, because I am pregnant”! said smiling.
stood up immediately. “, please say something”! “When did you find out”? “Yesterday, I have been feeling bad for a long time and I never thought about taking a pregnancy test, but the doctor made me take one and it was positive. She then took a blood test and it’s still positive…I am pregnant, I really can’t believe it”! said tears welling up.
“Wow, I didn’t expect this, you are really pregnant”? He asked putting a hand through his hair. “Yeah I know how surprised you must be, I never thought it was possible”! “ this is bad timing”? “What…”! “No I mean I have just dumped and it’s just become public and now you are what…2 months pregnant, the press will have a field trip”! “ I wouldn’t have told you if I knew you would react like this. I thought you would be happy”! stood starring out of the window. “I am happy you told me ”! “But you can’t be there for us”? “Well I don’t know if I am ready for it”! “You didn’t talk about anything else than children the two weeks we were together”! “I know…and I thought you told me you were on the pill”! “ I was told I would never be able to have children”! “So you weren’t on the pill”! “For what use”! said while she dried away her tears. “Well you are pregnant now, might have been wise to be on it”! “For fucks sake …”! said and stood up. “I don’t know what to tell my parents”! “You don’t have to , I can do this alone”! “ no one is able to do a good job alone”! “Well I thought my mam did a great job with me and I can do it”! “So you want to show our baby, that it’s okay to skip protection and handle everything alone”! “ you are really not fair now, I want you to go and I am really sorry I told you”! said and opened the door. “I am not going”! “ I want you out of here, go back home and think about it”! “I am staying here”! He said looking at . “Okay, I’ll be in my bedroom, just feel like home”! She said and went to the bedroom. lay down on the couch. “I can’t believe this, finally I am getting what I want and I behave like a jerk”!
“ I think I better go back home like you said, I need to think about this”! “Okay, I understand”! said from the other side of the door. “Are you sure you’ll be okay, I promise I won’t take too long to think”! “Take all the time you want”! “Will you please come out here for a moment”? asked. opened the door. “What is it”! He gave her a huge hug. “I promise I’ll be there as much as I can, I promise you that, but I need to think about how much involved I want to be”! “Yeah , that’s understandable”! “Are you sure”? “Yeah , go home and talk with someone about this”! “Does know”? “No I haven’t told anyone, just you and the doctor knows about it”!
When was gone broke down, she really wanted him to hold her, but she knew he wouldn’t, but she didn’t understand him. This was his dream and not all things in the world could be planned. Of course everything in ’s Westlife schedule was planned, but wasn’t part of this world.
“ what are you doing home already, I thought you were visiting ”! said. “Yeah I did see her, but I had to go back home”! “Okay things didn’t go as planned”! “Erm no, not really”! replied looking at his beer. “I don’t understand it, she would be thrilled to have you there”! said. “Yeah, but she had a surprise for me”! said taking a sip of his beer. “Oh what was that”? “Nothing, but I had to get out of there and back here, I don’t want to talk about it”! replied.
Chapter 10.
4 years later:
-This is , and ’s answer machine; we are not in, so please leave a message after the beep.
-Hi , it’s , I know we get a Christmas card every year, but we miss you in , misses you. We would like to invite you to our Christmas party on Friday, it would be really nice to see you there and bring your kids or flat mates or who the other two are, we would love to see all of you! Oh did I tell you that it was .
“Are we going to a party”? asked, when buckled up her two children. “I want to fly again”! said and the two kids just started laughing. “You two are crazy, well you better sleep for a while we have a long ride”! said smiling at her two toddlers. It had been easier than she thought to raise the two of them alone. She missed and had lost contact to + " ") and , or she stopped picking up the phone when her day got busier. She had read somewhere that and had got a baby boy and and and and were pregnant. When she arrived to both her children was fast a sleep. There were lots of cars outside. She hadn’t replied ’s phone call, but had decided to take a chance and go there.
“ is that you”? She heard someone say when she stepped out of the car. “Oh hi Mr. , yeah I am sorry I didn’t reply the phone call, but I decided to go anyway”! She said blushing a bit. “I think that’s a good idea, where’s your room mates”? “Well they are my children”! said smiling. “And they are sleeping, I better wake them up”! She added. “Let me help you”! He walked to the car and looked inside.
“Hey guys, you got to wake up now, we are going to a party now”! said and took out . Peter helped her with . “Mam”! said and walked over to her and took her other hand. “Well I think I have a son that will be surprised”! “Surprised”? asked. “Yeah that you have children”! “Oh, well he knew I was pregnant, so it won’t be that big a surprise”! “What when he sees them, ”! “What are you thinking about ”? “Well look at them, they have his eyes, smile and his hair”! smiled, “You are very clever Mr. ”! She said smiling. “Does he know”? “Yes, but I never got to tell him that it was twins”! said. “Well I can’t believe he didn’t tell us”! “Well he wasn’t ready anyway, but I guess he has moved on”! “No actually not, he is still single”! smiled. “You are smiling”! “Yeah I still like him”! “Who do you like mam”? asked. “Your daddy”! replied smiling even more.
“Look who’s here”! yelled through the room. Everybody stopped talking and saw for a short moment. She went out in the hall and helped the children get off their jackets. “Who was it”? asked. “She’ll be here any minute”! said. “Hi”! said smiling and waving. “Oh my god you came”! said walking over to her giving her a big hug. “You said you didn’t mind if I brought somebody so I did”! stood looking at her; she looked tired, but still beautiful, when she said she had brought someone, his smile faded. “Of course it’s okay, there is food enough”! “I am glad, but they don’t eat too much”! replied smiling. “ and come over here and say hello”! The two toddlers came in smiling. “ this is my children and ”! “Oh dear, they are so beautiful”! looked at the two children, how could there be two, had she already met somebody else, they looked the same age. He looked up and got eye contact with her.
“Hi ”! said smiling. walked over to her, “Hi sweetie, I am sorry I never called”! “It’s really okay I think I have done really well with the two of them”! “Yeah, they are beautiful I know my kid is what 3½, what about the other”? “Well, they are both 3½, they are both yours and they are twins”! “Why didn’t you tell me”? He asked confused. “Well you didn’t react very well to the fact that I was pregnant, so I never got to tell you there were two”! stood looking at the two of them talking, “I am sorry to interrupt; did you just say that these two beautiful kids are ’s”? “Yes dear, look at them, they are our grandchildren, they look so much like him”! said. “Yeah I noticed, but why haven’t you told him”! asked looking even more confused. “Mam she did…I had no idea what to do”! said a bit sad. “What to do , we have missed almost 4 years of their lives and so have you”! “I am sorry mam”! said and walked outside. “Can I ask you to look after the children, I’ll go talk to him”! said smiling. “Of course dear”!
“ , where are you going”? yelled when she saw about to step into his car. He turned around and looked at , “I am so sorry”! He said and stepped out of the car. “It’s okay, really it is ”! “They are so beautiful”! “Yeah they look like you, the beautiful eyes, the beautiful nose and the beautiful smile, their hair, you know it’s all from you”! “ and ay”!? “Yeah, do you like the names”? “Thanks do they have my last name”? “Not yet”! “Why”? “Because you never wanted people to know about my pregnancy”! went closer to , “You know I love you right”! He asked. “I love you too”! leaned in and they kissed. “MAAM”! yelled and came running. “What is it sweetie”? “Where are you going”? “I am not going anywhere”! bent down and picked up his little boy, “Hi ”! “ this is your daddy”! “Hmmhm”! said a bit insecure. “Well I better get in and find my girl, what do you think”? asked. “Yeah I think you should do that”! said and put her arm around his waist. He put his arm around her shoulder and then kissed the top of her hair.
When they came inside, handed over to and looked at , who were sitting on the floor playing with some of the other girls at the party. “Hey ”! She looked up at and smiled, which caused him to shed a tear. “You are crying”! “Yeah I am, do you know why”? He asked picking her up. She shook her little head. “No”! “Because I am so happy, that you and came here with your mam”! and went over to and . “, this is daddy”! looked at and broke into a huge smile and then started to give him butterfly kisses all over. “You are not going back to London are you”? asked looking at . “Where are we supposed to be then”? “Well I have a huge house you know and it’s really empty, I would love it if you moved in with me”! “ I don’t have any work over here”! said looking down. “No, but we have memories and you don’t have to work, because I want you to come with me all over the world when we are on tour”! leaned in and kissed . “So that’s a yes”? “Yes”! replied. put down to play with the other children and embraced , “I love you so much”! “I love you too sweetheart”! “Will you marry me”? “Are you serious”? “Yes I am, I don’t want to spend another day without you”! “I would love to marry you ”! replied planting her lips on his yet again.
The End
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